hindsight is 20/20

why is it, that when you look back at your life, the decisions youve made, the mistakes youve made, you can see the exact points where you could have changed the outcome. its like a giant flashing neon sign, flashing over the instant. his heart has been broken many times. the arrows become a regular theme. something to be brushed asside, something to be disregarded for his own selfish desires. its only when he realizes that its passed and that there might have been a chance that he falls back, opens a few to many beers and ends up telling someone that he loves them. that four letter word. he hasnt told anyone that he loved them in a long time. the last time he told anyone that he loved them was a guy he met online. it was to perfect, a cute guy who was into him, but never spoke to him again. they had helped each other, he thought he had something to look forward to, the end of january. but it came and went, nothing, nothing at all. so for the last few weeks hes done nothing. he leaves his computer on 24/7. he hopes that when he clears the screensaver in the morning there will be something there, but there never is. so, hes stuck, between a rock and a hard place. surrounded by these neon arrows. and its getting harder and harder for him to make his way though the desert of possibles. to many paths finally diverged. hes starting to get tired, and he doest know if he will be able to tell the next time, or the next, or the next, or the next...